Grace Filled Seasons

hello, beautiful reader, I hope you are fully embracing today and living it in full!

I’ve recently started a new chapter in my life …. 30…. and for all the societal pressure that can sometimes be placed on females at that age, to be honest I’m very excited to be starting this chapter!

to be transparent, my 20’s were nothing like I had hoped for when I graduated high school and have been very pain-filled years.

there has also been a lot of loss in my twenties, too.

when I think on those years of my twenties, the best thing that came from this chapter is my spouse, Sam, and my reaffirming of my Faith.

Sams commitment to me as a husband has kept me afloat when I would otherwise have sunk to the bottom and never returned to the top of the very dark waters.

maybe that describes my twenties the best; a passage forward though dark valleys and deep, dark waters.

but yet, it was a passage forward.

the dark valleys were not an end, my journey hasn’t halted because it wasn’t allowed to be the end for me.

on each and every day I thought I could not survive and press on, I did.

at this point I have faced most of my “biggest fears” I’ve had since childhood.

loosing my parents was one of them because, well, they were my only blood family left.

loosing our baby was also one of them, because for 8 years it was a constant battle of treatments and hopes and tears and horrible side effects from medications that even hindered my ability to simply walk at times.

I have had days so dark, I wasn’t sure if the sun would rise the next day.

but it always has, and it always will until Christ returns.

so, what do I hope for my 30s?

I want to pursue a life built on my Faith that is holistically based, serves others, finds me at peace with life, and leaves behind a decade that was lived to the fullest.

I want it to be the opposite of my twenties in many ways, yet I know that to live life also means to embrace the storms that inevitably pass by.

so while I do not anticipate a decade of no valleys, I do want to aim for a decade where I live in light whenever the dark valleys come.

every season of life has beauty in it for us to find, every season is a blessing, and every day we wake up is a testament to Gods grace.

and that is my hope for this next decade – to aim for the highest of mountains and rest in the light that is only found in Jesus whenever I slip during the pursuit of the peaks ahead.

I can finally see the sun filtering through those peaks now; and that in itself is such a beautiful sight to behold.

~ A